Open Letter, The First.

As I'm writing this, Tori Kelly's 'You Caught Me' is playing on repeat. So maybe, you might wanna turn this song on as you proceed to read through, just so you get a grip of my letter better. Lol, dont doubt me, just do it. 😏

This year has been pretty tough. Its not over yet, but the first eight months has cradled me to hit rockbottom. My physique wasnt at its tip top condition for close to four months, I never spoke well of myself even once, I stopped seeing old peers, I hated people unnecessarily, I broke into tears almost every day, I lost track of my life for a good long while.

Then God decided to send a beautiful package, filled with wonderful beings to help ease my load. They carressed my flaws and worked with my fears. I was never made fun of for my weaknesses, in fact I always got helping hands for falling down seven, and warm hugs for getting up eight. Of course, throughout my stay in the Gardens, people come and go, they call themselves 'Friends'. But only a few stayed, not certainly physically, but in soul-form. They live within you, they whisper in your ears to perservere though you've been treated badly at work, most of the times when guests cause a hassle. They feed you when you dont have enough to keep you full, they shelter you when the weather decides to call you Unlucky, they hold you tighter when you feel least loved.

Ikah 🌹
Thank you for the days you've helped me survive. For standing by my side when I'm helpless, for being my voice when the rest decided to shut me up, for never losing sight of my back you promised to watch at all costs. You taught me to get back on my feet, so I could get back on my grind. You are not thanked enough, so I extend my utmost appreciation to the one who means the universe to me. For all the love you have given me, the advices that came in all sorts of form - be it through texts or by the way you roll your eyes, every bit of it all has been taken into account and all these progress, I owe it all to you. I love you and nothing, not an atom of anything else, can change that, now and forever.

Baba 🌷
You saw what I was when I first joined the team. How hard-headed and untamed I was, you still stood by me, helped soften all my sharp edges and smoothen them curves. You nag a lot, yes, but without fail, it works. The amount of pain I projected since we met up to this date, you saw them all. And you never turned your back against me. Thanks a million, for all that you gave and I lovingly accept them, not knowing what to present back to you, that marks up to the same value of love and patience you have gifted me with. I love you, despite the many times I acted like I dont.

Huda 🌻
You, my lady, have seen me shake and break, countless times. When R stood me up for ice cream, you got me some. When I needed somebody to accompany me to Raffles Place cause I know A was gonna blow his top off, you willingly did. When I was feeling very much hopeless with my relationship, you sat there and listened to the same old shits over and over again. Everybody did - but you just had to be the one who saw and heard, EVERY GOD DAMN FREAKING THING, from 0 to the Hero you made me today. I became a lot more vocal with my opinions because you taught me so, I learnt to smile more, cut down on the angst because you have instilled so much happiness in me. Thank you, and I love you more than I thought I could ever feel.

Zunnur 🌼
You. Yessssss. What do I have to say about you? You always know the right things to say to pick me up, you come to me for comfort, and that itself, screams love straight into my heart. Thank you for reminding me of my worth, for wanting to know what troubles me most, for being the better half. I see you're liking your new companion there haha, I bet he can make you feel like puking rainbows and you guys will get along pretty well. Matchmaking 101, settled! Continue being the ever-so-beautiful person you are, I'll need you for life. I love you more than I could ever promise, dont you ever let that slip off your mind.

Then, not long ago, I spoke to my hot summer love. Ikah and I named him Hamena, but now he's Bubba. *pukes a whole bathtub full, 😂* If you have no clue who Bubba is then perhaps its not you, so move along. HAHAHA! From Gold Coast and back to homeland, he keeps my heart light, all I do is laugh. I learnt quite a little something about Floorball, the sport he's been adopting since forever. I adore the passion he portrays everytime he's in the court, because I know how much the selections for the final squad to be sent for SEA Games means to him. I dont play the sport, I dont even know how the pressure rises when you're being preyed down by your opponents in the court, but I sure know that he, along with the rest of these talents, are the pride and glory of the country. I've been to his club match and I know this one's gonna make mummy proud LOL! Keep up with the good work you've shown throughout these years, I'll gladly come to watch you play the game you love from the spectators' stand, and you can impress me over and over again.